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Sunday, March 08, 2009

Bike Ride

Homeschooled adolescent boys are some of the geekiest, most awkward people who ever existed. I question whether or not having children is worth it.

I went on a bike ride today, from PHC all the way to the middle of Leesburg and back in about 2 hours. It's been on my wish-list since last year, and I finally pulled it off. Saw some horses, a lot of kids on bikes (hence the adolescent boys--discussing math units for fun? Homeschooled.). Passing under an old stone bridge brought a lovely sense of being somewhere else, and riding over 7 was a pretty neat change in perspective. More rural houses along the way, saw a half-finished mansion-house that looked like it had been abandoned after the economy started dropping. Made it back, really tired. After biking that long, you get off and you can't seem to get your land legs back--everything moves so slow, you have to learn to walk again. Totally worth it though. Kind of like having children, probably.

Next time I want to take a trail bike. Mountain bikes have too much friction. And the seat was pretty stiff.


Sunday, November 16, 2008

My thoughts about "Dreams"

This was late in coming, but here it is. I'll try to keep it short.

First Dream:
Today many in the church (and almost all of the secular world) ignore the problem of spiritual possession and oppression, blaming it on psychological dysfunctions or chemical imbalances. While these can be legitimate causes,  literal demonic activity against human beings is a reality--has been since the Garden of Eden, during Christ's lifetime, and up through the present day.

A woman possessed is an example of that reality. Instead of relying on Christ's power through the Holy Spirit, I sought traditional medicine to cure the symptoms of the woman. Traditional medicine can sometimes help treat symptoms, but the core root of possession will continue consuming if not dealt with supernaturally.

I was told that a hospital in a dream symbolizes a church. Apparently this church was not doing a good job--merely treating the symptoms but not the root (as shown by the nearly lifeless bodies hanging from the ceiling). The fact that the hospital was underground shows that they were trying to bury the problem and not cast it out, perhaps revealing how often the church tries to bury this kind of situation, hoping it goes away.

From a secular standpoint, it is very telling that the nurse melted when she realized that there really was a demon present. It's as if you look into an abyss and the abyss turns around and consumes you, unless you have something greater than the abyss protecting you.

Second dream:
This dream was more complicated to me.  The Christian organization was ambiguous to me. At surface level, it's a picture of how someone may fool himself into believing he's a Christian by living ethically, until he truly realizes that Christianity is about being in communion with God through Christ, not just fulfilling a list of dos and do-nots.

The misdirected prayers reminds me of how we often get caught up in making ourselves and others hear us pray, instead of using prayer as a communication with God Himself.

I'm almost positive the chaperone behind the girl was the Holy Spirit. He was in a suit, and I never saw his face. His presence did not draw attention to himself, but it added legitimacy to the girl's prayer.

I was also told that the red color of the girl's head represents wisdom. The girl was young, but she respectfully rebuked the others for not praying rightly. Her prayer was direct and appropriate, warm and comforting, and, finally, empowering.

Thanks for reading. If this helped you in some way, I'm grateful.


Sunday, October 26, 2008

Dreams

There are some dreams that aren’t normal dreams, that don’t leave you as soon as you wake up. For me, these dreams often have a spiritual message within the content. Last night I dreamt this kind of dream twice.

 

I realized that part of having this kind of gift means sharing it with others—so, here it goes. . . . I’ve tried to keep it short, and haven’t named those who were present in the dreams (if you think you might have been in them, you can ask me). If this kind of thing seems pretty far-fetched (dreams from God? okkaaayyy....), don't feel like you have to attach any weight to it. I just felt that I should post it.

 

First:

I was walking through a mall with some people I know, until we came to a place where a small giantess of a young woman stood still, screaming—it was a scream on one note that lasted for several minutes at a time. She was demonically possessed, unable to move. I was afraid to speak to the woman, because I was unsure of myself in this kind of situation and the whole thing was extremely unsettling. A girl in our group spoke up and said that we should try to cast the demon out, and I nodded, perfectly willing to give someone back-up support but not wanting to take the risk myself. Though I motioned for her to go ahead and try, she backed down, too.


Instead, we took the woman to the hospital, where we believed we could find treatments for her. The hospital was underground, and there were no windows. The nurse waved a medical scanner over the woman’s body, and the reading from that was off the charts—the squeal that came from medical reader’s audio was piercing and in the same note as the woman’s scream.


While this was being done, I wandered down the hall in the hospital. As I looked into the rooms, I was shocked to see other people similar to this woman. The hospital had drugged them into unconsciousness, dangling them from the ceiling with a rope tied to their left wrists.


I turned back to the possessed woman and the nurse in time to see the woman fixing her gaze on the nurse and the nurse wide-eyed with fear. And then, like hot wax, the nurse began to melt into a heap of flesh. Then I woke up.

 

Second:

I was a graduate, starting a job at a Christian organization. There I realized that even though I acted like a Christian, my faith wasn’t real. I wasn’t saved.


Finally, after someone inadvertently shared the Word with me again, I decided to truly accept Christ into my heart. Humbled after living so long as a counterfeit, I told a man beside me that I had accepted Christ as my Savior. He gathered people in the room to pray for me.


But it was as if no one heard the reason for the gathering and they began to ask for other things with prayers that were clichéd, general, and intangible.


Then a girl, about twelve and with warm ruby red hair, came from the back of the group and spoke to me, gently correcting everyone by saying that I was the one who needed prayer. Her face was young and smiling, but she exuded a spirit of maturity and strength. A chaperone followed behind her, a tall man whose face I couldn’t see because I was looking down at the girl. She placed her palm across my forehead and she prayed for me. At the end of the prayer, I woke up.

 


I have some general thoughts about what these two dreams could mean, but to keep this short, I'll post them later.


Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I Love You Gerber Life

So I'm canceling my Gerber whole life insurance policy that I've had since babyhood. I get about 10% of what the policy is actually worth.

I felt like the prodigal son taking away his inheritance, since the policy is worth so much more than what I get canceling it. Then I remembered I have to die to use that money. 10% alive didn't sound so bad anymore.


Friday, August 22, 2008

An Entry for Its Own Sake

I posted. My xanga exists in spite of the naysayers.



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